Living in Limbo

I always thought that by now, I would know exactly what I wanted to do with my life. Everything would be sorted out perfectly, and I'd be happy, living in a great apartment, and going to a job that I love everyday. In the very worst scenario, I'd be traveling to all parts of the world, experiencing different cultures and meeting fantastic people. I would be a person people looked at with awe and admiration, shocked at how worldly I was at a mere 22 years of age. I would be a confident, well-rounded, and well-informed person and a productive member of society.

That isn't what happened.

lim·bo

noun \ˈlim-(ˌ)bō\
an intermediate or transitional place or state; a state of uncertainty

I'm living in limbo. More specifically, I'm living in my childhood bedroom, unemployed and broke. I'm residing in a town whose memories I've been successfully running and hiding from for the past five years. Until now. I have a college degree laying on the dining room table. At this point in time, it seems more like a $120,000 paperweight than a respected and hard-earned honor. I'm valiantly applying to dozens of jobs, though all of my attempts have turned up fruitless.

Now, don't misunderstand me. I've seen a great chunk of the world and done a lot of spectacular things. I just want to do more, see more. I'm insatiable and thirsty to learn everything I can.

Be the change you wish to see in the world.
-Gandhi

I want to make a positive difference in someone's life, no matter how minute. I have an unbearable need to help people, oftentimes putting others' needs before my own. A teacher through and through, I find the greatest joy in helping a child nail a tricky task--whether it's understanding y=mx+b or learning how to spell "the." There is nothing more satisfying than watching a child beam with pride from a task well done.

I want to be a catalyst of change. I want to impact the global community in a meaningful and constructive way. Not only are people everywhere going without essentials such as food and water, but they are going without quality education and health care, as well. I want to somehow affect the global community in a meaningful way that will improve the lives of all involved. I'm not entirely sure how to do this yet, but I am confident that one day I will be able to achieve this goal.

I simply know I am destined to do great things, and I am eager to begin my life's duty. I am resentful of the rut I am stuck in, and I am hopeful that everything will work itself out, and I will be able to carry out my dreams within my lifetime.